Faith

There was leisure

Under pressure

A lecture

During torture

Parody of strings

Memories that cling

Sadness pain brings

Happiness from other things

Walk as I run

Faults can't be undone

Gaze as I fly

Feelings that won't lie

Look me in the eye as we dance

Glance at life at our last chance

For reality bites when we go to sleep

But the peace it brings we'll keep

As we stare at the nothingness this moment brings

There's no happiness from other things..

Dilemma

There's pain, no gain

No sun, just rain

There's love, no trust

No glow, just rust

There's rhyme, no reason

No faith, just treason

There's urge, no passion

No goal nor mission

And as I put my eyes to rest

I wonder if I can stand this test

That upon myself I bestowed

And symphatized well in this ode

Timestop

Fire burns, the light glows

The anxiousness that builds, the wait that goes

Chasing the unchasable, facing the unfathomable,

Reaching the distance, I wish to be able

A flicker of hope, a fragment of life

Deliberately hurting me, like the cut of a knife

Nothing felt right, nowhere was bright

Slowly went out the light, my day turned into night

Minutes pass, and seconds go

Till how long can I stand, I wish I know

For no matter where it is, words won't just fit

How wondering where you are will end, for just a little bit

Here I lay on my thoughts with wishful thinking

That the boat I built isn't slowly sinking

How do I cope, how do I deal

When the world without you, just stood still

This uneasiness it made is all I feel

Bliss

Shades of roughness, shades of fall

Apologies that in demise have ended

Glory from those days when we used to walk tall

All but patched up this broken heart we mended

Lost in a sanctuary of love and care

Slowly all we worked for, ended up nowhere

Our world was filled with hatred, fear and despair

All my dreams suddenly turned into this nightmare

And slowly dusk turned into morning

Cobwebs from the past are slowly gone

Doubts in my soul are slowly going

Out of the window, when all's said and done

Once more in this haven where we first kissed

Memories filled with fun that I surely missed

I abandon all regrets that time have built

For this love we had, shall never wilt

Random Poetry

When you smile, my heart stops

All the good thoughts, all the props

Of a love that's in to deep

In my heart I'll always keep

I'll sing u songs and lullabies

Of all the emotions that in my heart lies

Screaming and reaching out to get to you

Oh I love you, it's oh so true

I just hope that no matter how long it will take

Even though forever, I will surely make

The improbable real, the unreachable possible

All this for my angel, who is just so lovable 

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Smile, and my world brightens up

Kisses, that I wish u'll never stop

Hugs, that are just enough for my heart to mend

Time, that with u, I hope won't end

Pain, that I will never make u feel

Memories, that u can keep for real

Dreams, that I only want with u to come true

Love, I hope this is what u feel too

Cause if there's anything that I would wish to do

It's all just to be here with you

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Pillory of Fears

I thought deep inside that I'm strong

Only to prove myself that I was wrong

To think that it was in smiling that I'll find comfort

That I well deserve from all my effort

But eventually all the hardwork bore nothing

I badly crave, crave for this loving

A love lost that was found at the right moment

Only to end up with my heart being silent

I hope that words can shatter pain

Like dark clouds that bring us rain

so long as I'm breathing, I'll wait in vain

In this heart of mine, you will remain

May time pass, hope it goes

Blitzing like the rapids upon my toes

Bringing upon joy filled with tears

As my dreams come true, as our time nears

For it's with her words, I hope she hears

Vanquished are my deepest, and darkest fears

Happy to be alive.

Happy to be Alive.

Glory be to God.

4:30 AM, March 23 of 2009, early Monday morning. Back from our meetup with charles/joseph @ makati, in a cab with Justin and Jarbs.

After dropping Jarbs off at their village gate, we proceed to the next stop which is Justin's place. As he was signalling for the driver to stop near at the safe side, we were going straight aimlessly at the road islands/gutters at the middle of the road @ 90 KPH.

The driver fell asleep.

Our screams of terror woke him up just in time, as we collided front tire first on the middle island, bouncing off violently as he tried to avoid more damage, from the left side of the road straight to the right in an ugly manner. With me in front, I could only wish that in that spur of the moment that there was no car behind us in that other side of the road or simply put, it will crash straight to us full speed, right into my seat.

A speeding pick up truck passed by and stopped cautiously at the side where we originally hit. If it was in the other side, I would be mincemeat by now. 

If the driver didn't wake up in time to break and stop us from crashing full speed at the middle island, our cab would have flipped 360 or straight to the other side of the road where other cars are speeding full ahead from another direction.

He was all apologies. He's been driving for 23 hours with no sleep and he wanted to earn enough for his kid's tuition fees. I asked him to park first near my usual drop point and made him drink coffee. There will be no us to scream at him if he falls asleep in the middle of the road again.

He was thankful and apologetic. I was just happy to see no one hurt. I did hurt my left hand but I'd lose it any day over my life. The listeners over at the food stall where he drank coffee was urging me to file a complaint for his recklessness. I call it human error or perhaps, just plain fatigue. We all get tired after all. He is a nice man as I see it so I let it go, wishing him a safe trip home as he kept apologizing as I boarded my next ride home.

One last look on the badly bruised tire that saved our lives reminded me of how God does his wonders, no matter what, who, where or how you've been.

Learn to value what you have. My life surely didn't flash right in front of me in this nearest death experience I ever had, but it made me realize that in a flicker of an eye, everything we all worked for could be gone.

Gone for good. Thank you Lord. Thank you for saving us.